Breakfast of champs

The Adventures of Accordo from Jeff Nixon on Vimeo.

Didn't make it up to get to school before 1.
I need to get back on track with my studies. It's just really tough that I have lost motivation to study anatomy. I know I am capable its just come down to rote memorization rather than a desire to learn. I can't stop now. I can't give up. I have invested too much time for me to just stop and give up. 
I still have the rest of the day to salvage my mistakes. I am not going to feel guilty about this as that just sucks my motivation.  I am going to be proactive about doing what it takes to make the grade. I can't let myself become distracted or down on mistakes.
Just head down and study.

Yet another wasted night spent surfing the net.
I have too much to study to be goofing off so much.  I am trying not to be negative about this.
Stayed up too late to make it to school. 
Goal for tomorrow: get to school before 1pm!

Ukiyoe Heroes

such a cool video! apparently this this dude in provo (jed henry) posted a wildly succsesful kickstarter campaign where his original prints of videogame characters are reimagined as traditional japanese woodblock prints.
I love seeing this process and would be interested to try it out for fun sometime. this video really shows a great craftsman at work.
really inspires me to waste less time as spend more time crafting!

here is the original kickstarter campaign video that shows more of the work

Homework

Midterm scores

Lecture midterm was last night and the scores and average were posted today.
Midterm was out of 40 points.
The average was 33%
I got a 72.5%
Feel OK about that.

Goals for today

Finish topographic anatomy lab homework.
Study for next weeks lab
Start anatomy material for next week.
Go to collective meeting.
Order new tubes
In bed before midnight.

Snowed for this first time this season. Just a little dusting nothing too much in fact it just started raining.

Midterm results

Got my lab midterm results back.
Did pretty average.
Whole anatomy class of fall was around 65%
My individual class was around 70%
I got a 72%

Could have had a few extra points if I hadn't changed my initial answer. Which means I should listen to my gut more than my brain.

Anything in the world

Been trying to answer a question lately and I  am having trouble finding the answer.
I often ask myself "if I could do anything in the world, what would I do"
And for the life of me I can't really put my finger on what I would do.
Maybe its because I  am not thinking out of the box enough or thinking creatively.
Maybe I really am doing what I want to do. But that can't be it cause I don't find it the most enjoyable thing.
maybe I need to work on exposing myself to new things.
But where do I start?
Maybe I should just stick with what I am already doing and see where it takes me.

Self portrait

Taken while driving from Francis to Heber

I want this.

I want this.

but I still cant decide if it would be better than a nexus 7.
I still think I am more comfortable browsing with a mouse and keyboard 90% of the time than I am with a touch interface(is this going to be a sign of my generation? are younger generations going to be more comfortable with a touch interface?)
there are still alot of things that are better done in a browser than on a tablet these days

night ride home

for the first time in a while I had the feeling of riding fast.
I dont know if it was the extra wind blowing around or the cloak of night doing it
but it was awesome.

this is a somewhat recent picture of my bike. seatpost and seat clamp have since been upgraded

in other news:
I havent been to class in over two weeks.
and I dont feel bad about it at all which is the worst thing.
there are times when I wish I got up to do work at school, but never have I felt the need to attend lecture.
its going to be hard to break this habit. sleeping in is really nice but the time has come to change my ways.

I am not looking forward to retaking my math class.

as for another highlight I did meet my goals for the day and I have finished my questions for anatomy lecture and finished my homework for anatomy lab and started on the second half (the eye and ear were the focus of this weeks lab)

What are people for. A collection of essays by wendelberry

Midterms....

Had lab midterm on Saturday. Have to wait to see how I did. Studied for two days straight (at least that's what it felt like). Still trying to figure out if I am being lazy or not.
Am I lazy and just can't succeed in a school environment or am I actually slammed.
I think I just have a hard time doing things in a faster pace then I want. I just want to be able to do things on my terms. Or maybe I should just give up on trying to control things.

Been thinking about monks lately. It seems like an appealing life to not have the complications of modern life to deal with. I briefly considered what I could do to make my life more monk like. Ideas considered were to move into the collective and live there. I would be away from people and would have less of the distractions that I don't like in my life (food and internet).

I had the realization today that being in a relationship would probably do a lot of good things for ones confidence. To have some one be close and support you would make a lot of the stresses seem like less of a big deal.

Have a lecture midterm in anatomy I have to deal with this week. I can take it Thursday if I want to pay but hopefully I will be ready to take it Wednesday. I want to try and have a good portion of it reviews tomorrow so I can finish up on up on Wednesday and take it. 

Goals for tomorrow: finish anatomy objective for endocrine system. Finish eye anatomy lab homework.

on the salt flats

Riding the bus is good. It just reminds me of how much better it is to ride a bike.

Bus trip

Sitting on a bus on my way to uvu after work because my bike got a flat tire on my commute. This resulted in having to get dad to pick me up and take me to work. It really sucks when crap like this happens.  I feel like I should be more independent when I ride. If I am going to commute by bike I need to be able to handle situations like this better. 
Also I need to get a better understanding of how the bus system works so that I can take advantage of it when my bike is out of commission like this.
I am really starting to realize that I need a working bike no matter the costs. I am so much more stable and happy when I have a bike rolling. I miss having a bike that is a joy for me to ride. I want my fixed gear wheel to get here soon!

School feels like it is falling apart on me. I don't know what I am going to do...

I have realized that a problem of mine that I seem to have is that I get overwhelmed too easily. I seem to get the most work done in a space that exists between having enough work and too much. The problem is that when I get too much work I get overwhelmed, feel like I can't do it,  therefore I don't do it. I would like to learn more effective ways of dealing with this stress in positive ways.
Maybe I should read a book.