Homework

Midterm scores

Lecture midterm was last night and the scores and average were posted today.
Midterm was out of 40 points.
The average was 33%
I got a 72.5%
Feel OK about that.

Goals for today

Finish topographic anatomy lab homework.
Study for next weeks lab
Start anatomy material for next week.
Go to collective meeting.
Order new tubes
In bed before midnight.

Snowed for this first time this season. Just a little dusting nothing too much in fact it just started raining.

Midterm results

Got my lab midterm results back.
Did pretty average.
Whole anatomy class of fall was around 65%
My individual class was around 70%
I got a 72%

Could have had a few extra points if I hadn't changed my initial answer. Which means I should listen to my gut more than my brain.

Anything in the world

Been trying to answer a question lately and I  am having trouble finding the answer.
I often ask myself "if I could do anything in the world, what would I do"
And for the life of me I can't really put my finger on what I would do.
Maybe its because I  am not thinking out of the box enough or thinking creatively.
Maybe I really am doing what I want to do. But that can't be it cause I don't find it the most enjoyable thing.
maybe I need to work on exposing myself to new things.
But where do I start?
Maybe I should just stick with what I am already doing and see where it takes me.

Self portrait

Taken while driving from Francis to Heber

I want this.

I want this.

but I still cant decide if it would be better than a nexus 7.
I still think I am more comfortable browsing with a mouse and keyboard 90% of the time than I am with a touch interface(is this going to be a sign of my generation? are younger generations going to be more comfortable with a touch interface?)
there are still alot of things that are better done in a browser than on a tablet these days

night ride home

for the first time in a while I had the feeling of riding fast.
I dont know if it was the extra wind blowing around or the cloak of night doing it
but it was awesome.

this is a somewhat recent picture of my bike. seatpost and seat clamp have since been upgraded

in other news:
I havent been to class in over two weeks.
and I dont feel bad about it at all which is the worst thing.
there are times when I wish I got up to do work at school, but never have I felt the need to attend lecture.
its going to be hard to break this habit. sleeping in is really nice but the time has come to change my ways.

I am not looking forward to retaking my math class.

as for another highlight I did meet my goals for the day and I have finished my questions for anatomy lecture and finished my homework for anatomy lab and started on the second half (the eye and ear were the focus of this weeks lab)

What are people for. A collection of essays by wendelberry

Midterms....

Had lab midterm on Saturday. Have to wait to see how I did. Studied for two days straight (at least that's what it felt like). Still trying to figure out if I am being lazy or not.
Am I lazy and just can't succeed in a school environment or am I actually slammed.
I think I just have a hard time doing things in a faster pace then I want. I just want to be able to do things on my terms. Or maybe I should just give up on trying to control things.

Been thinking about monks lately. It seems like an appealing life to not have the complications of modern life to deal with. I briefly considered what I could do to make my life more monk like. Ideas considered were to move into the collective and live there. I would be away from people and would have less of the distractions that I don't like in my life (food and internet).

I had the realization today that being in a relationship would probably do a lot of good things for ones confidence. To have some one be close and support you would make a lot of the stresses seem like less of a big deal.

Have a lecture midterm in anatomy I have to deal with this week. I can take it Thursday if I want to pay but hopefully I will be ready to take it Wednesday. I want to try and have a good portion of it reviews tomorrow so I can finish up on up on Wednesday and take it. 

Goals for tomorrow: finish anatomy objective for endocrine system. Finish eye anatomy lab homework.

on the salt flats

Riding the bus is good. It just reminds me of how much better it is to ride a bike.

Bus trip

Sitting on a bus on my way to uvu after work because my bike got a flat tire on my commute. This resulted in having to get dad to pick me up and take me to work. It really sucks when crap like this happens.  I feel like I should be more independent when I ride. If I am going to commute by bike I need to be able to handle situations like this better. 
Also I need to get a better understanding of how the bus system works so that I can take advantage of it when my bike is out of commission like this.
I am really starting to realize that I need a working bike no matter the costs. I am so much more stable and happy when I have a bike rolling. I miss having a bike that is a joy for me to ride. I want my fixed gear wheel to get here soon!

School feels like it is falling apart on me. I don't know what I am going to do...

I have realized that a problem of mine that I seem to have is that I get overwhelmed too easily. I seem to get the most work done in a space that exists between having enough work and too much. The problem is that when I get too much work I get overwhelmed, feel like I can't do it,  therefore I don't do it. I would like to learn more effective ways of dealing with this stress in positive ways.
Maybe I should read a book.

Bridge

I am really into this picture I took of a bridge I drove over while in San Francisco.

so glad to be home and have this whole nightmare over (well it wasnt THAT bad but still its nice to be home alive)
now I just need to figure out how to pay for this whole thing. I should have enough money, but for a trip I didnt even want to go on in the first place I dont want to spend alot of money.

now I have the rest of the week to worry about.
axial myology lab quiz on Tuesday that I havent even begun to study for....

a math test and anatomy lecture quiz on Wednesday....

and the anatomy lab midterm on Saturday....

I am so not excited for this.

I really wanted to have some downtime this weekend. instead I got to sit in a car for 12 hours to drive to a wedding and then 12 more hours to drive back.
I really dislike feeling this because I feel like I should be more supportive and excited for sam. but at the end of the day I am not going to see that guy again and I have a ton of school to get caught up on.

california wedding

Spent the past two days in Oakland California for Sam's wedding.  I have been kind of dragging my feet this whole trip due to the fact I have had a ton of school work to take care of.
Been stressed about school and ha king enough time to study then on top of that taking a break to drive 13hrs out to California for a wedding.
The drive out to California went with out a problem on Friday but Saturday things quickly went down hill. We drove Jakes car out to breakfast but on the way back to the hotel Jakes car broke down. The clutch became fried (cause Jake sucks at driving manual) and unable to shift leaving us in California with obligations to meet the coming Monday.
Scott pulled through and called his dad for AAA assistance to get us towed to the nearest Honda service center. We were lucky to have the majority of the parts to fix it up but the repairs were looking like it would take longer than a day meaning we would not leave until Tuesday morning.
This caused us to rent a car for our return trip.

All black

Been wearing all black lately and I kind of like the simplicity in my wardrobe.

Yesterday's highnote

Stripping my spoke nipple sucked but looking on the bright side there was one highlight yesterday.
After work I decided to stop by the collective and see how things were going (also to see if my mission workshop bag finally came. I didn't). Chris was working that shift and had been there all day and wanted to go grab a bite to eat. I stayed behind and watched the shop while he was gone.
Shortly after he left a gal came in from BYU wanting to do some interviews for the historical archives. She was interested in cycling in Utah and interviewed me about my experiences and thoughts of cycling. She asked me a range of questions from why I cycled, when I started, what I like about it, and a bunch of other things.
It will be interesting to see what makes it in to the books and how my statements will be interpreted by future generations.